伤心失眠的一个晚上

也不知道为什么不能控制自己
但是当你告诉自己要控制自己
你就是不能做得到
反而会更糟糕

也没有人会想到为什么就是因为一句话
会使到整晚四个小时要这么的尴尬下去
你有你的坚持 我有我的原则
事情的发生也不应该是如此
是你要看我有没有在乎你
还是我不体谅与迁就你
我不知道

船到桥头自然直
事情总会到一个终点
我希望我们能好好的解决
因为问题依然会存在
我也希望结局是美丽的
因为我的心从以前到现在都没变
我会做我最好的一切
将我们联系在一起
但是一个巴掌拍不响
希望我们共同努力

也希望我们都不多心吧

希望今晚不是一个伤心失眠的晚上
否则晴天也是大阴天

累累累

累累累······
累累累······
但我坚信累是值得的
到头来
还是
累累累······
希望不要
累累累······
睡够够就不会
累累累······

包容

人人都懂要包容
试问又有多少个人能过完全做到呢
要包容人家的确定不是想象中的容易
但是人是多么希望他人能包容自己的缺点
他人何尝不会感到困难呢
当他人伤害了我们后
我们会设下了心防
保护自己不受伤害
开始对伤害自己的人改观
开始逃避，远离又或者脱离他的圈子
但是在自己面对难题的时候
有多么希望他人能守在身边帮助自己
就算那个你已经改观的人不再伤害你
守在你的身边
他的一举一动都会让你有厌恶的感觉
你会时时提醒自己
他一定会再伤害你的
对他处处提防
其实就是这种的想法让人的距离越来越远
一群曾经很要好的兄弟姐妹
因为一些冲突
从此答应自己不再与其他的兄弟或姐妹联络
一日又一日的过去
渐渐的这种想法在自己的头脑中深深扎根
从此
一个曾经彼此快乐相处过的
一个曾经令你哈哈大笑的
一个曾经在你最需要肩膀的时候守在你身边的
亲人，好友，知己
就从生活中离去
多可惜啊！
所以我常常告诉自己
无论他人有很大的缺点
或者他人曾经伤害过自己
我都要去包容他
原谅他
所有事尽可能
大事化小，小事化无
明天会更好
从新过快乐的日子

我不能说我做得到
但是我愿意尝试去做
我愿意去包容人家的缺点
怎么讲
多一个朋友好过多一个敌人
人生很短
要珍惜身边的每一个人
好好的享受生活才是最重要

（
希望你们也能够包容我的缺点
因为
我的缺点
还不少
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
）

恒恒回家咯！！

好不容易地一个学期又完了
千辛万苦挨过了一张有一张的考卷
头痛万分地努力收拾行李
虽然东西不是很多
但是不知为什么
就是不能就他们放在最小的空间里
好啦
收拾完了又要烦东西在假期的时候放哪里
到底要带多少东西回去
结果就收了大概有六大包的东西
一个人就将他们从五楼搬下底层
叫了一辆学生汽车
送到了学长的公寓楼下
又要一个人搬上公寓的八楼
当然是有电梯的啦
到开学的时候
又要一个人抱回去学校宿舍
巴士是今晚十时
说真的我还真的不舍的槟城
但是又超想回家见我想见的人
吃我想吃的食物
玩我喜欢玩的游戏
还挺矛盾的
不过在关丹的日子
又只有区区的一个月
我真的好想珍惜这段日子
希望今晚搬行李的时候
手不回脱臼吧
前几天搬了一箱书进宿舍的储藏室
那箱书真的真的很重
办完后我的手臂都有淤青
希望明天早上不会有有这种事情发生
先别想这么多吧
我现在应该烦烦要如何到巴士站
比较实际
哎哎哎哎哎
问题一箩箩啊。。。
还是安心回家吧

恒恒的长高理论

人在小时候都会有一些怪怪的想法
我所谓的怪怪
就是一些超现实的想法

我小时会想很多
为什么有男有女
为什么人会长高，人如何长高呢
为什么婆婆在骂人，但依然很慈祥
为什么我看见美女会心跳跳呢
为什么人会累
为什么我们不能出龟波气功
为什么我不是孙悟空的儿子
为什么樱木花道可以进步酱快，而我不能
为什么蒙娜丽莎这一幅烂画有这么多人欣赏，而我的画无人问津
为什么电视里的男主角能够和女生接吻，我就没有人要理我呢
。。。。。。。。（很多很多的疑问）

就来分享一个我想时候的想法吧
小时候不晓得人是如何长高的
妈妈只是告诉我要多吃一点食物

我那时就想为什么要多吃食物呢
终于就想到了一个完美的诠释

人之所以要吃多一点食物
就是因为人体里面什么多没有
就是空的
食物吃进肚子里
就会填满身体里的空间
我还以为自己很了不起
从脚到头
一层一层塞满
那时候都以为吃了鸡腿
整只鸡腿就会以原本的模样
完完全全的跌入我的身体里
食物已经塞满了整身
食物就会不见
然后人就会长高了

我想到这个‘事实’后
我每天都不停不停的吃
的确我长高了许多
但身体也往外扩越吃越肥

那时还想到自己很聪明
哈哈。。我懂了一件人家不懂的事情
怎么还没有人来问我呢
我就是不要告诉大家

大了才发现
其实不是每一件事情都是很如意的
自己觉得对的东西
但事实上他未必是对的
但如果永远以第三者的身份
来看待每一件事情
我相信
我就不会常出糗了

自私的我

很多人都会很奇怪为什么我没去
我答也答了很多次
有人赞成我的选择是对的
有的人去反对我的抉择
有的人表面赞同 但是暗地里反对
有的人觉得可惜 但是觉得我的选择是勇敢的

我也不晓得为什么我没去
我也问了自己很多遍
一部分的我还蛮享受辩论的乐趣
一部分觉得自己应该突破自己
一部分觉得好累好累 但是尝试 仍在考虑范围内
一部分对于未来的合作感到无奈
一部分觉得自己去了 不会快乐

常会问自己为什么要选择这样的路
快乐的大学生涯徘徊在我的脑海里
一方面我很享受压力下的快乐
一方面却讨厌过度压力的痛楚
一方面喜欢无法预知的刺激
一方面对于背后的流言蜚语感到无奈
一方面认为自己的忍耐空间很大
现实 但是却比想象的还要小得多

我问自己为什么自己可以这么自私
但我可以告诉大家
我需要那么一点点的个人空间
我要自己比之前快乐多一点点
我希望在没有压力下 学得多一点点
我可以让自己的时间多一点点的规划性
我奢望可以得到大家那么一点点的谅解
至少我会很好过一点点

心情复杂

反复无常的心情

伤心在于
不见了我很珍惜的手链
无法预测女朋友的健康
考试成绩史无前例的底
辩论上的瓶颈以及挫折

不安在于
看不见未来
没有了方向
不了解自己
不所控制的健康
心中空虚的感觉

失望在于
流言蜚语的伤害其实可以很大
真实的背后可能是另一个谎言
所谓的朋友在背后也未必友善

开心在于
我已经放开过去的成见 不再为之而困恼
找到一个我可以依靠 我关心 我担心 我想念 我挂念的女朋友
拥有一个可以谈心事 分享快乐的知己

感动在于
一个让我随时都保持冷静的环境
关心我 支持我 陪伴我的女朋友
一个逗我开心的好朋友
还有一大班朋友

谢谢你们！

言毕。

Finally i've decided!

Currently i'm studying in USM for the geophysics,today is the 2nd day since the university open again yesterday.

Now i'm in the computer room of the library. Just woke up from a small nap 10 minutes ago. Been checking my facebook, friendster and hotmail account for any updates. Now i have nothing to do but facing the computer and i'm feeling to write a short post here.

here the post starts,

I've decided what i want to do and who i want to be inside the university after many things happened. And i've make an very suffering decision about 1 event. My choice is to let the thing goes in its own way and i would have never stepped a foot in it. I warned and let her chooses on her own. And i will not give a FUCK!

Now i've find my goal and i want to work for it. And i want to be as humble (di diao) as i can. For all, i just want to do i want withouth crossing anybody's line. And i don't want to join anyone whose princicples that i can't even accept. Just be meself, be true to meself, be fair to meself, be happy for meself. And make each day count!!

That's what i thought.

- LIPPY -

News You Wish would Never Happen!

This happened on Tuesday morning.

On Tuesday midnight, i was smsing with someone. That night, there was a football match between Holland and Italy. Feeling sleepy, i felt asleep around 12pm. That was a happy night because i had a good conversation with the one i smsed with.

I was asleep with the light on...

When i woke up, it was just 5 am. Maybe i can't sleep well with the light on. Feeling bored, i got to me computer and checked the news for UEFA Euro 2008 of that night online. I was shocked with the defeat of Italy with a 0 -3! What the fuck is wrong with them?! They were the fucking World Cup Champion!

Suddenly, someone nudged me in MSN. It was Kevin Young. What the hell are you people? Don't you ever need to sleep? i planned to ignore him. But his message caught me.

"Hey. u know the news d?"
and i answered,
"what news? Is it Holland 3-0 Italy?"

the next response of his was a link.
http://www.chinapress.com.my/content_new.asp?dt=2008-06-10&sec=malaysia&art=0610mb30.txt

i opened it. You got to be fucking kidding me!!! It was a news about 9 secondary school students turned the Pahang state legislative assembly hall into their playground. (a place where all the ministers or mayors of the state having meeting in, they discuss the regulations of the state in it)

i checked those pictures. There was me in some of these pictures!!

HOLY SHIIIITTT !!! I'm so fucking dead!

"Their act in the hall was snapped and the photographs, with comical conversation blurbs, were circulated on the Internet recently.

An investigation conducted by the daily showed that the group were Form Six students of a prominent school in Kuantan.

The students – playing the roles of the judge, witnesses, prosecutor, accused and others – were making fun while enacting a court case.

When the court “case” reached an impasse, the accused suggested to the judge to chase assemblymen out of the hall. " (extracted from another english newspaper, it reported this news of ours on the next day)

It scared the SHIT out of me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, the fucking scariness enveloped me after our conversations. I was so fucking horrified! For fuck's sake, i've never felt so bad in me life! Whole me body was effortless. Me mind can't control me own body. i can't sleep for the rest of the night. i was scared of going to jail.(as you know, there are many faggots in the jail, who can't wait to crack your fucking ass wide...jeje...just kidding~~just simply worried of getting record and a ruined future )

Around 7am, i checked in TV. i watched the reported programme 《新闻报报看》 (for those who doesn't know about this programme, it's a programme reporting daily news in a relaxing way. it shows the covers of every chinese newspaper and has a little discussion on it)

FUCK!! i saw it! It was on night edition ChinaPress! All our pictures were splashed all over on the 1st page of that fucking newspaper! Fortunately, the hosts didn't have a discussion on it!!

This is the day-edition ChinaPress
(The pictures was smaller than those that are in night edition.)


Can you see it?! It's fucking huge!! And it makes the news becoming national issue!! Something like Osama news, like we are a big threat to the country! Beside our news is the report about the problems of the raising price of petrol(feeling a little proud meself to be able to have this report beside ours). FUCK ChinaPress!! don't you ever have some better things to write?

(A little side story,
the 1st time i saw this pictures was when we took it in the assembly hall.
The second time i saw it was on this FUCKING newspaper!! i have no ideas what the dialogue is talking about.
According to the report, it's about argument on the 5% goverment tax of KFC.
Christ, that was CREATIVE!! well done to who put this dialogue on! BRAVO!!)

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Here is the story of what happening that day,

i remember. In the June of last year (almost a year ago), there were students selected to participate in a trip to the state legislative assembly hall. i was selected by me teacher because i scored me General Knowlege (Pengajian Am) paper very well that month!

Of course there were students from other classes as well. In the morning of 27th June '07, we all left to our destination. The person from the the state legislative assembly hall had given a 2 hour talk about the the state legislative assembly hall itself. Around 11pm, we had our lunch in the other room. The meal was so fucking delicious!! and joking around with friends at the same time.

I was so having fun that moment! i even thought i've been getting luckier that time.

After the lunch. Some of the teachers were sitting there chatting. Some went back to the assembly hall itself chatting with some students. And the person incharge told us to take pictures as we like. He was also chatting with students in the assembly hall. OK, for sure we, a bunch of crazy under-pressure guys would grab this chance tightly!

We posed ourself and took nice pictures of it! We posed just like no other teenagers. Exaggerating poses with fucking ugly faces were uncontrolable. We were having so much laughters! And those made our day!!


After that, we had some group photo taking. Around 12.30pm, we went back to the school by bus again.

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See? it's pretty normal, right?! let's ask you guys a question.

If you are in the legislative assembly hall yourself together with a whole bunch of crazy close friends, would you do the same as we did? taking funny pictures. (please be reminded that it's not easy to go in there. It's the chance of the lifetime!!)

I bet many of you would have answered " YES!! why not??!! "

OK, to those who are worried, everything is okie now. The minister said that, they won't report this to the police(THANK GOD~!!). But they wanted an investigation running in the school among students and teachers. i think i'll receive the call from school in no time. But i've already get meself ready.

I've heard that all the Pengajian Am teachers were questioned by the Minister himself. (I' so so so so so sorry!!) Even the new Principal who just transferred in got questioned. (I'm sorry again) But my juniors said that my ex class teacher, Mr. Yong ( a super super funny teacher, one of my favourites) was giving a surprising response.

"My student ar.....HOW LIP HENG!!!...so creative!!!"........okie! thank you, teacher. though i just simply posed.

that's the news coming out the next day.

http://www.chinapress.com.my/content_new.asp?dt=2008-06-11&sec=mas&art=0611mc64.txt

Okie!!

I want to apologise to those teachers who were getting into trouble with this news by all means! I'm really so sorry and so guilty about what happened. I'm really sorry!!


Thanks me friends as well for their concerns! I'm alright now. Please, if you can, please stop asking me anything about this fucking thing! i've been answering the same questions for few days. i'm getting a little bit fed up. thank you for your coorperation.

and

FUCK those who is trying to make a bad joke of it!! you can't fucking take me down by that!

Finally,

I want to thank SOMEONE who really helps me get through everything of this. SOMEONE accompanies me and consoles me, tries everything to cheer me up! and SOMEONE did it! After all, i'm not so sad anymore. Thank you so so much!! Love you...

-Lippy-

P.S. thank god there weren't much friends of mine reading ChinaPress and The Star. Maybe they didn't read newspaper much
P.S. if the news was reported in SinChew or Nanyang, i bet we guys are already in trouble by now
P.S. One more question, am i famous now?!! XD

The sunlight of tomorrow

I always like to see the sunlight! once i see the sunlight, i feel kind of warm and relief that THE WORLD ARE NOT COMING TO THE END, at least for the new day! i am realy afraid that i won't be able to see the sunlight of tomorrow!

Ok, I think the world is going to be finished! In what kind of way?! I don't really know. May it be tsunami that change the world map, may it be huge flood that destroy part of the country, may it be some kind of drought that causes deaths in some countries, may it be the surfacing of some new unknown fatal diseases, may it be the extinction the animals are facing, may it be the end of the day for human because of the falling environment.......famine, wind storm, tsunami, hurricane, extrem temperature, earthquake, insect infectation, slides, volcanic eruption, wave/surge, wild fire.Every one of those can easily destroy human!


It's flooding and they can do nothing!

Will you really check the sunlight of tomorrow every morning? Do you think u have a chance to see it when a flood is coming and you are busy carrying stuffs? Do you really think you can see it when there is tsunami coming and the sky is mouldy?

These are some effects of the Katrina! what can you do if you are in the city?



There are so many natural disasters happening these days!! And it's getting more and more and more!! Do people really realise that these natural disasters are far more destructive than the what so ever economical depression blah blah blah?!

This is the trends of natural disasters

The problem the world is facing now is the issue of global warming! come on, people, it's GLOBAL WARMING!! GLOBAL WARMING!! OK, apparantly, there are people just didnt realise or they choose not to be getting realise this problem! Why?! FUCK them all!!

Can you use money to spell it off?

Especially those industry-based countries, like US, China. Basically it's every country!! I know the small developing countries and other countries are not in the top 10 list that are stating the 10 countries that produces the most harmful gases into the atmosphere. Come on, every country is producing CO2 into the air!! Don't just said that, "Oh, China and US are the cause of the global warming today! and not really us!" Fuck you, you motherfucker!

This is the screenshot of the movie "The Day After Tomorrow". The Hurricane is attacking LA! Do you think it's going to happen? Mayb it's not now, but i can guarantee it will in the future.

Yeah, US and China are the main cause of the global warming!! but others are also responsible for the problem! Thanks to some of the European countries that start to focusing on the control of the gases releasing from the factories. Come on, US! come on, China! Do you really want to wait till the moment of the natural disasters are destroying all the factories in your own country and really FREEZING your economy?

This is another screenshot of the movie "The Day After Tomorrow".
New ice age is striking US. Maybe US will only realise they are wrong right after the disasters, just like how it is in the movie. This movie is really trying to tell the world that the world is really facing trouble here!

Okie people, everyone should have really got the awareness that the world is dying, and we are dying too! So, we can maybe start doing some steps at our own home. Control the use of air-conditional, carpool, and so on! I don't really think US, China and some other countries would really care about the global warming! Including my country, Malaysia. I don't really see any actions taken my the goverment to solve the problem.


Never mind! If you still want to see sunlight of tomorrow, please think about the world~~ Whatever you do, please think about if it will be real damn good for the rest.

Guys, i still want to see the sunlight of tomorrow. Help me!